26.1.07

..IKAW PALANG AKING MINAHAL


hayan kita mo na.........nakapost na yong pics ng roses na bigay ko sayo, eto nga pala yong yadayadayada ko sa araw na ito.........natatandaan mo ba yong background song(she was caught flatfooted in a surprised bday party for her and she has no idea that i was the guest singer......hehehehehehe), we started early 80's, nasa boarding house pa tayo sa Sampaloc, siguro kung maibabalik ko lang ang panahon, at uulitin uli ang istorya ng buhay natin wala siguro akong babaguhin, ikaw pa rin ang aking babaeng pakakasalan, miski hindi pantay ang ekonomiya ng ating buhay, isa kayo sa mayamang angkan sa southern luzon, samantalang ako lumaking mahirap, pero hindi naging hadlang yong mga bagay nayan………hayan kita muna , tayo pa rin, pasensiya ka na sa akin, miski pag-me tampuhan tayo no-talk ako sayo, miski sobrang taas ng pride chicken ko, pero ito lang masasabe ko ngayon, miski siguro hamunin ako ng kasalan ni mareng Oprah (winfrey) tatangihan ko siya, ang masasabe ko lang is……hindi kayang tapatan ng anong mang-yaman ng ibang babae sa mundo(i.e. whether monetary or she has the mayamang boobs, i didn't go now for boobs, that was before, hehehehe) ….ANG PAG-IBIG KO SAYO…….HAPPY 22ND- WEDDING ANNIVERSARY TO YOU, AND TO BOTH OF US, THANK YOU FOR HANDLING MY HEART DELICATELY FOR THOSE PAST YEARS, AND SAYING NO WHEN I ASKED PLEASE........HEHEHEHEHE…..FOR BEING WITH ME FOR THE LAST 25 YRS…..KASAMA YONG 3 YRS NA MAG-ON TAYO(MISKI NOONG JEEPNEY DRIVER PALANG AKO, ALAM MONG IKAW LANG ANG GINAGARAHE KO, WALA NA AKONG PINAPASADAHAN PANG IBA)…..MAHAL PA RIN KITA………THRU THOSE YEARS/AND THE YEARS TO COME………TULAD NG KANTANG ITO……..IKAW PALANG MINAHAL………HABANG KAPILING KA LIGAYANG WALANG HANGGAN………
Now, while we're here alone and all is said and done
Now I can let you know because of all you've shown
I'm grown enough to tell ya
You'll always be inside of me.
How many roads have gone by
So many words left unspoken
I needed to be be your side
If only to hold you.
Forever in my heart
Forever we will be
Even when I'm gone
You'll be here in me
Forever
Once, I dreamed that you were gone
I cried, I tried to find ya
I begged the dream would fade away and awaken me
The night took a hold of my heart
And left me with no one to follow
The love that I grasped in the dark,
I'll always remember

Forever in my heart
Forever we will be
Even when I'm gone
You'll be here in me
Forever
Forever in my heart
Forever here you'll be
Even when I'm gone
You'll be near to me
Forever in my life
Always thought I'd be
I'd be yours

3.1.07

I thought that I was free of you, but i was wrong


eto po mainit pa parang hot pandesal pero patulugin muna ang mga bata bago i-read
yong blog ko
Last week I was busy browsing yong sandamukal kong mp3 since napster days, then
natalisod ko tong lumang kanta ni Eydie Gorme(actually pinay version itong nasa background pero mas maganda yong original),- fave ito ni Abby noong high school pa
kami, naa-alala ko tuloy si Abby( laging Abby-tin na abitin ako sa kanya) (hindi niya tunay
na pangalan) actually bestfriend ko siya since grade 3, doktora na siya ngayon,
research doctor siya sa UK sa isang pharmaceutical company, minsan noong nasa high school
kami, sabi ko sa kanya puwede ba tayong maging mahigit sa pagiging mag best friend, sabi
nya sa akin e bestfriend lang kami “no more no less” actually lamang siya ng tatlong paligo
ke LT( Lorna T) feeling ko nga pag kasama ko siya, ako si Rudy F.noong high school kami
sabi ko sa kanya bakit hindi ka mag-ayos mag-pa-seksi, sabi nya para ano......sasabihin mo sa
ibang tao e gf mo ako sabay sabi nya TSEEEEEEEE.…..manigas ka…..sasabihin ko
naman…..alin ang maninigas? Tatawa naman siya sabay sabi bastos…bakit tumitigas ba yan?
Sabe ko naman salbahe ka talaga…..pero yun nga lang, pag-kausap ko siya, parang lalake yong
kausap ko – actually noong hinamon ko siya mag on kami – sabi nya sa kin “LIBOG LANG YAN MAKUKUHA PA SA PALIGO YAN”
talagang blunt lang siya magsalita, katunayan
nga last week nakausap ko siya sa phone e puro kalokohan na naman ang pinauusapan
naming ganoon siya ka-open sa akin…….noon nga siguro gusto ko lang siyang ipamporma pero
hindi ko talaga siya mahal, siguro takot din akong masulot siya sa aken dahil sobrang ganda
niya, sabi nga niya talagang ang weakness ko e mestiza dahil sabi nya e yong wife ko e tisay
din……..too much na of Abby na…….masyadong off the record yong pinag-usapan naming
sa phone eto yong lyrics ng song…….
I catch the bus and go to work
The way I did before
The same routine
Most everyday except I guess
I see my folks much more
A year has passed
I thought by now that I could make
A new life of my own
But habits are
So hard to break
I think of you
And I still ache
It takes too long to learn to live alone
It's really bad
When Friday comes before I know
The weekend lies ahead
The walks we took
The football games
And when it rained
How late we stayed in bed
I've done so much to change the house
The attic's full memories I know
And yet the night
Turned out the light
I wait for you to say goodnight
It takes too long to learn to live alone
I go on dates but when I do
I'd always find
Before the night is thru
The same routine
Behind my smile
I'm sitting there
Comparing them to you
And in the end it's always you
I'm feeling even more when I get home
I thought that I was free of you
But I was wrong I never knew
It takes too long to learn to live alone

wala lang

1.1.07

"all i want is you and you alone is enough"

let me try it in another angle, "she alone is all i want, and she alone is enough"

small talk to ponder - "new year = start ( new year equals start)"

Parang engineering equation iyan…….new year = start(new year equals start)………parang software program, lam nyo this is the way to start the new year, kung me sama ng loob kayo sa kasama nyo sa bahay, kung me kaaway kayo, there is no such thing as mortal enemies - only bruised pride and overriding ego,”start” with a simple smile, a simple hello then every thing will follow, a simple hi, a “start” to look at her/him using your smile muscle in your face, learn to appreciate the people around you, say "you love him/her now, or you like her/him now".........cause the next new year maybe too late……..happy new year……..wherever you are